Never Not Noncommittal

I guess I mostly haven’t posted in so long because I was afraid. A lot of my thoughts are pretty cynical— a bit too cynical to share with people who don’t know me very well. And that at this particular point in time I could be justifiably (kinda) even more cynical? It’s very possible it would happen.

So yeah, I have refrained from posting. I think everyone would thank me for that.

I completed NaNoWriMo. And I abstained from facebook for a month. Good November, overall.

December, eh, not as great, but hey, I have 3 classes left and 3 finals (all easy) and I am done with my first semester of college! Pretty nifty, huh? 

Yeah, I just said nifty. Shut it.

I dunno. I guess I’ll be better eventually? It’s hard for me to believe it now, but I mean, I’ve always bounced back from stuff in the past, but right now I’m just like, what does it even matter? I don’t know. I guess that’s another reason I haven’t posted. I don’t quite know how to say the things running about my head.

I guess one thing I can say for sure is that next semester is going to be so much harder than this one. Oh well. What can you do. But keep going? I dunno if this makes sense. But I figured someone would maybe want something.

Sorry this is all over the place. 

1. Sometimes, at night, it does surprise me that in a few hours, everything dark will be lit up. I dunno why, it’s happened every single day I’ve been alive and no one else seems to think anything of it, but it continuously amazes me. 

2. I’ve 1,145 songs on my iPod. I’d say 97% were legally bought by me. 2% were given to me by friends. 1%, well. I dunno where it came from, but I’m sure I’ve gotten illegal songs at least once.

And how much money have I spent on money to fill up my iPod? And why? With free music on youtube, the radio, pandora…

I dunno. I don’t get it.

Nanowrimo— going well. 2 days ahead. Haven’t written for today, but that’s mostly because I’ve been too busy reading and doing homework.

Short, strange entry. Mea culpa. 

I’m mostly posting because I’m taking a break (for a second) from Chinese. Do you know how hard it can be to listen to paragraph after paragraph of another language and then completely forget what jia means or if you means different things the different ways you say it and even what tone is being used in any of the words you’re hearing?

Because I did not, I will tell you, before today. I think I just overloaded with too much Chinese at once though, (I have a tendency to do this with any kind of homework, mostly because I like to do it all at once and get it over with, rather than taking like ten minutes fifty different times during the day to do it.) because this paragraph can’t be that hard. None of the other three were.

Anyway. Nanowrimo’s going well. I missed a day, but I was already a day ahead, and I wrote twice as much the next day, so that’s good. I’m still ahead.

I dunno. I feel like it’s just going to get harder to keep writing. Right now I’ve discovered a new place the plot is going, so the writing is pretty smooth. Hopefully the smooth sailing continues.

I got into the writing workshop position I wanted! Hopefully it’s not crazy hard/bad, but I’m thinking it’ll be kinda nice to just help people with their writing for a few hours. Not very stressful at all.

I’m in the library now, and it’s really calm. I normally get more homework done here than in my room, but today has just not been a good day for productivity. I think I’ve hit my slump and I need to snap out of it tomorrow.

Chinese test Wednesday & Friday, Anthopology test Friday, and I had a Sociology test yesterday. I don’t have a lot of exams, but every four weeks or so most of my classes decide to have tests. And I got my first British Literature paper back, the one I was stressed about? (I’d never written a 6-page paper before! On literature, especially.) I got a B+! Low, for an English paper, for me. But better than my pessimism was expecting, so good.

Okay. I’m going to quit letting myself have a break and buckle down so I can get an okay grade on the first part of my Chinese test. In 12 hours, I’ll be in my anthropology test. Argh. Okay.

Adios amigos.

I’m kinda used to composing facebook statuses out of things that happen in my life. I guess kinda used to is an understatement. I’ve made at least two dozen in my head since I deleted my facebook Monday night.

But my latest one was something along the lines of finally having composed a schedule for next semester. And I actually think I like it! With adding Chemistry in there, I thought it’d mess up everything, but things worked well. Even though the honors course I wanted filled up verrry quickly. I’m just going to have to take Children Stars instead of Human Sexuality like I wanted to. Oh well.

I need to buy some snacks somewhere soooon.

Nanowrimo’s going well still. I’m reading too much to be too far ahead, but I guess that’s kind of expected with me.

My Chinese homework this weekend looks to be interesting, at least. We have to write a script with at least 12 turns, based on a narrative she gave us today. If I wasn’t so tired, I would’ve probably started doing that instead of composing this post.

K.

Remembering to blog is a bit harder than I thought it would be. Facebook was always just an automatic response to getting online, but when I get online now it’s just like “What could I possibly do here? This is an empty desert. There’s a tumbleweed.”

So I guess I should put a Tumblr bookmark where my Facebook one was. That’ll probably remind me, since every time I open my browser I automatically look there.

Facebook deprivation is getting easier and harder at the same time. Like I said before, there seems to be so little else non-information wise to do on the internet. I can listen to music, sure, but I have an iTunes account for a reason. Oh well.

Nanowrimo, you ask? Well, it is going rather smashingly! (You can tell I need sleep when I start talking to myself or saying words like “Smashing.”) I’ve stayed a day ahead so far. That’s super good. Hopefully I can do it this month! Words have been flowing from my fingertips so far. I feel pretty good about it. But I guess maybe I always do at the beginning of the month? I don’t really remember!

Homework has been stayed on top of. (What am I saying.) Chinese is fun, hard, but fun. English has been a lot harder than usual this week, mostly because I have an exam on the Victorian era, which is not really my favorite, and I have to read a bunch of T.S. Eliot, who is not easily comprehensible.

Oh well. It’ll all be good. Or it won’t. I guess.

Sorry this entry kind of (really) sucks, I’ll try harder tomorrow/later/the next day/soon.

K.

So, I’m supposed to write 1,666 words a day for NaNoWriMo. Today, so far, I have 2435. So, I’m ahead of the game. I’m hoping it stays that way, because I’ve tried the past two years. I was soooo close last year, and I just couldn’t do it. This year it seems like it should be even harder, since my classes are actually challenging, but since I’ll have timeee… Hopefully that will help.

My book-to-be is kinda hard to describe. I dunno if anyone would be interested to hear about it either. But it’s going to be kind of mystery actiony.

At 6, I’m going to the gym they have here for free, and since I finished all of my homework early, I’ll try to get a little further ahead for the day. Since I gave up facebook, it’s a lot harder to distract myself.

Although all the noise in the hall definitely helps.

Anyway, I’m going to write a little and then leave.

K.

Firsts are exciting. Scary. Whatever.

Mostly they’re just boring, like the first chapter of Harry Potter? It kinda made me fall asleep. At least four times. And I’m a pretty die-hard fan, but I totally skipped that chapter the first, and every time since, time I read the book.

I mean. Who cares. Get on with the giant already.

But let’s be honest— JK knew what she was doing. We needed some boring Private Drive stuff to set up the rest of the entire series. So I guess I should try to do the same thing. Of course it won’t be as epic as anything she’s done in her entire life, but still.

My name starts with a K. I just quit Facebook, I gave up caffeine a month and a half ago, and I’m in my freshman year of a college that I pretty much hate. I love reading & writing, so I’m trying to do NaNoWriMo— National Novel Writing Month, where a bunch of crazy writing people try to write 1,666 words a day every day for each of the 30 days of Novemeber to create a tiny novel.

So my life is pretty crazy.

But I mean, I might as well try to keep people (ie, my family and all the stalkers I’m depriving of following my life via facebook) in the know, because I get a feeling that the next month will be one of the most hectic of my life.

So here I’ll talk about my day maybe, probably how well/badly I’ve done at my 1,666 words, and maybe even something you’ll be interested in.

Enjoyyyy. Hope you didn’t just skip this post to mosey on to the next. (Especially since there isn’t one yet.)

K.